Last night I dreamt and not only did I dream but I freakin remembered it! If you know me well enough, this is something that does not happen ever really. I just wrote this down. I thought it was maybe worth posting since I haven’t posted for a very long time and because I think it has a pretty nice message. 

July 30th, 2010

Last night I had a dream that the party that I planned earlier in the night, the card/board game party I planned with matt for here at my house, was happening already. But there was something very strange about it.  For some reason, which didn’t seem to phase me, all my friends from elementary school were there along with my current friends, people who, while awake now, I can’t even think of their names, just faces from my past. Chris Lilly stands out in my mind for some reason.  The weird thing is that since I don’t actually know what they’re like now, my projection of them was this weird amalgamation of what I remember them as, their 9, 10, 11 year old selves with a vague assumption of what they might be like a little grown up.  Like I mentioned, it was very strange.  The other strange thing was that the party was not being held at my house, it was taking place inside some kind of large hall that I guess my dream self rented or something for this “large event.”  I remember that almost nearing the end of the dream at one point I thought to myself, man is this ever a complete and utter failure NO ONE SHOWED UP WITH ANY GAMES.  But for whatever reason that anger and sadness left me and all of a sudden I was just extremely happy being surrounded by those who I have enjoyed throughout my life so far.  I don’t know what this dream means but I do know that it affected me because I know that I woke up in tears but I have a feeling they were tears of joy.  I also remember thinking all of this as soon as I awoke and just letting myself go a little and letting the tears flow.  I shouldn’t ever take these great friends I surround myself for granted.  I often might, but I also try to stop myself as often as possible to tell myself that I have had a really good time while they were around and now that I’m not as whole when they finally leave for the night.  I hope my future years in life bring as much luck in friends as my entire life so far has, especially these last 5 or so.  Goodnight world.