Huhhhhh

Emotions orrrr thoughts or I dunno. Something goin on chemically.

Something like this always seems to happen.

After the friends go home after a nice long day with them.

I guess if I think about it, it probably has to do with the conversion of the extreme high I get when friends who I love are around me to the calm, tranquil low of being alone once they leave.

I think if I were to make a statement about myself I would say that I don’t enjoy being alone in a quiet room or being in a chaotic mess of people but most enjoy the controlled chaos of a couple of friends being rowdy and hanging out in a single room together. So in a sense I do like the chaos part but in a controlled manner. We can be sitting in a room and be as crazy and obnoxious as we want as long as it’s within that room and it doesn’t get way way out of hand.

That is what I love. 

And every time I’m with this certain group of people I seem to get just that. 

What else is on the mind?

I have to job hunt tomorrow. As well as all weekend in the Toronto (Etobicoke) area.

Going to the apartment to stay the weekend. Mainly to job hunt but also to go to a Serenity screening at the Bloor Cinema with Melissa and Margo. So that should be wicked. I actually haven’t watched that in a while so it should actually be a pretty exciting watch.

I drink massive amounts of water. I really love water and when there isn’t a clean source of mass amounts of it, it really brings me down. It’s so little to ask for. It’s only like the 2nd most important thing we need to live. Guess I shouldn’t be complaining though. Things could be a lot worse.

I only mentioned it because I currently am thirsty AND have to pee.

Today I:

• fixed up my Resume for jobs (not Steve)
• enjoyed a good power outage
• went to Aric’s and met up with Matt
• enjoyed the vast landscapes of Red Dead Redemption
• walked downtown to the Brown Dog Cafe
• welcomed Nolan to the mix
• drove to Alex’s apartment
• played a single 3 hour game of Munchkin (amazingly won by the host himself)
• drove to Sobeys for snacks
• drove to my house to hang out
• watched a Kurt Russell airplane disaster flick called “An Executive Decision” (terrible)
• had a fun time hanging out in the basement and watching The Simpsons
• seen them off on their journeys home
• blogged about it (whined) 

*Note: This is not one of the blog topics I had in mind for the past week which is kinda obvious because this is spontaneous stupit, but it will do for now.

The world of the internet is a rapidly changing landscape. Everyday there are numerous so called “Web 2.0” services popping up all over the horizon. Like most tech-junkies, I at least give each one a try and see what its all about. The very first major web service (other than Gmail) that I joined…

My very good friend Matt Stuart just started a tumblog himself. So check out all his astute points and beautiful photos.

Got a strange feeling coursing through me right now. It’s a familiar one but always strange nonetheless.

Situation: Just got home from seeing Iron Man 2 with the two Matt’s, come to my room, open both computer’s and start checking on downloads, checking updates on twitter and tumblr.

The feeling is an overwhelming sense of ‘woah the world is moving way too quickly and I seem to be moving very slow,’ so many things zoom through the mind when I look at the list of podcasts that I just yesterday made for myself to get caught up on, the sites to check and re-check, the friends who are online that I could talk to. This feeling is the essential reason behind my continuous feeling that I need to take a digital break for a while. But I don’t have enough self-control to do it myself so I really need an excuse (camping comes to mind) to do so. I don’t have an idea coming up of when this excuse will present itself but I am determined to have a week away from the net at some point during these next four months. Really need a cleanse. 

Tonight was a great night of fun. I went out with Matt T. and Matt S. to see Iron Man 2. We arrived early bought our tickets and then walked to Wal-Mart to buy some snacks, natch. I got a box of Junior Caramels and a can of Arizona Green Tea. Went back with the guys to the theatre and snuck the snacks in my bag along with my water bottle. From the reviews I’d heard my expectations had been slightly lowered and thusly I had a good time with the movie but am aware of it’s flaws. It certainly is no Spider-Man 2 but is nowhere near an X-Men 3 or Transformers 2. After the movie, we had to go get the Duke a pair of work shoes for work, so we walked back over to Wal-Mart and quickly picked out a pair. After that we roamed the aisles of the huge store looking at novelty clocks, lamps and other furnishings and then scrounged the bargain bin of DVDs near the Electronic section basically just poking fun at the various titles. After this we drove home and parted ways. Then I came inside and wrote this. 

Finally getting time to get deep into Marvel, something I’ve wanted to do for a long time now. It makes me happy that soon I’ll get a lot more out of the universe than just what the movies have shown me. Spider-Man is becoming a bigger and bigger part of my life lately, not just the cool factor but the moral codes and such. Sounds silly but to me it’s becoming something more real. More on this to come as I read more comics.

This week is shaping up to be a good one. A good one for me.

I’m uneasy, on edge, don’t feel right, restless, feel like there’s something that needs to happen or something I need to do but I cannot figure out what it is.

I write this after just arriving home from a Ford Plant show which was one of THE most mellow shows I’ve ever witnessed there. Nothing to complain about, just very different. It made me tired during it. I yawned about 22 times at least.  After going to Wendy’s for Matt and Cole for a late night snack I drove myself over to Tim Hortons and got a doughnut and an Ice Cap. While I drove home I downed the entire frozen beverage before we even exited Brantford.

Now I’m home though. Sitting here in my dark room and feeling something’s amiss. I feel like something tomorrow I have to plan for orrr something I’m forgetting. Do you know the feeling I’m talking about. As much as I think about everything and assure myself that there is nothing to worry about, you’re worry-free man, you get to go to sleep tonight and wake up as late as you can and not have a thought in the world till Monday morning. 

That’s where I’m assuming this feeling is coming from, Monday morning. That is when I will start my summer of hell that is full time work. I shouldn’t complain ever really, the place is so super clean and not difficult work at all. I should feel lucky I have a minimal physical labour job that gives me very good wages all summer long and will most likely guarantee me a job each summer that I’m willing to come back.

And I do feel lucky. But the luck is bittersweet only because this will be money that I never actually see. It will go towards paying of my student loan, my tuition for next year along with living costs and rent for my apartment during the next year of my life. 

Like I’ve said to some before, the moment that I most look forward to right now will be in the Fall, when the new school year has started, I’m living on my own in my new apartment, and have a part time job somewhere near school. Then and only then will I finally have disposable income to cherish and save for various luxurious items.

Until then, bring it on summer, ya stupid, hot, sweaty, mess.

What a fantastic day. Did some more shooting with Matt for my final short film project for school titled, Adrift. While we were out shooting, our goofy selves pursued and prevailed, creating scenes from my film that were super ridiculous and just the funnier version of what my serious script calls for.  No one will really understand the ridiculousness of it until it is finished and posted online but also no one will truly understand the fun we had making it. No awards will be given to this thing, but this is straight out of our heads humour and hilarious random stuff that we’ve been thinking up for a couple years now. We just finally happened to have the means these past few weeks whenever I bring a camera from school home.  

Anyways, the shoot was so much fun. We roamed around town and just shot whatever came to mine.  Then later in the night we went downtown on the corner and filmed another time lapse video of the town from sunset into night time and it was a very successful endeavor.

And not only is the product from the filming great but the experience was great. We set up the camera on a tripod on the sidewalk sat down in the grass with our laptops to try and find some free wi-fi somewhere downtown. This proved to be harder than we thought but we eventually were successful and found some internet although we still weren’t interested in our computers. The picture eventually became us standing around the camera, our laptops wide open in the grass lighting up the darkening ground, blasting Fang Island and Akron/Family as we chatted for an hour about the various things and were visited by passersby who were intrigued by our current unorthodox setup. 

Now I am back in my room, viewing the day’s footage and listening to more Fang Island. Such a powerful, energetic album that makes me feel great about my day and my life. Love it. 

bettie’s boy