I Lay In Bed And Wonder
Sometimes, when I finally make it to my bed, when I finally say to myself enough is enough and that I should finally get some sleep, not out of exhaustion or tiredness but out of pure conditioning to sleep during the night at some point, I lay in bed and feel a sense of uneasiness. Like almost regret without thinking of a thing I can regret. I try to pinpoint what it is. Is it something I’d wish I’d done today? Or is it the dread of something tomorrow? Both could be the case some nights but then on others neither apply, like tonight. So what is it?
